Since I wrote my last post, I needed to go through a period of germination before I was ready to put words to print once again.

This period of time between Robin’s passing date anniversary (May 20) and his funeral date anniversary (June 8) has been a very intense time for me of reflection, quietness, solitude and tuning into him.

I wonder what his soul experienced between these dates in 2012 and whether he was closely watching what transpired in his honor. I suspect that he was.

It really matters when a person leaves the earth plane. People are leaving the physical plane of the earth every minute. We don’t know the vast majority of them, who exit their bodies under the most gentle or horrendous of circumstances. But they still matter.

I did not want to rush and write anything here until I was truly ready. Now, my ideas have formed sufficiently enough in my soul to share them with you.

This post is inspired and influenced by the energies I am experiencing concerning Robin during this introspective time between his passing date anniversary and funeral anniversary. It is about spiritual beauty and in remembrance of beautiful souls that I adore.

Avatars of Love, Beauty, and Compassion

When most people think of an avatar, they think of the movie or a graphic representation of a person seen on the internet.

That is all true and fine, and I liked the movie. But the word “avatar” has much greater and deeper meanings.

An avatar is an incarnation of the divine in human form. It is also an incarnation or the embodiment of particular human qualities.

According to https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/avatar, an avatar is the embodiment of a Hindu deity, for example. The other definition, which is the one I am relating to in this post, is “an embodiment (as of a concept or philosophy) often in a person.”

On May 22^nd, I felt guided to read Autobiography of a Yogi by Paramahansa Yogananda again.

I sought his guidance about some things going on in my life. As I spent time thinking of him, I remembered that he was called a Premavatar, an incarnation of divine love. His guru Sri Yukteswar referred to him as this. (1) The title Premavatar was officially given to him by his chief disciple, Rajarsi Janakananda after his passing.

This is so beautiful to me and it caused me to reflect on Robin. I thought about his beauty that flowed through his 4^th and 5^th chakras, the heart and the throat respectively, as music. Here, I am not talking about physical beauty or glamour, although he had that.

I am speaking of spiritual beauty, a beauty beyond words, that I hear coming from his soul, a higher place, through the vehicle of his songs.

For me, one of the songs that display this spiritual beauty quite strongly is Elisa, particularly the end of the song.

The combination of Robin’s voice and the musical composition in this song recently brought me to tears due to the beauty of it. He found a way to make the sadness of saying goodbye sound exquisitely beautiful. I have a great appreciation for this type of beauty.

At the end of the song Elisa, Robin was able to consolidate and transform the emotions of loss and longing into gorgeous notes of music. It is an incredible piece. Robin was only 23 years old when this song was released.

I was using my third ear while listening to this song, meaning, I was listening deeply for the emotional messages he was uncovering. Perhaps you use your third ear too, when listening to Robin sing.

Some of my reactions to Robin’s music may tie into my being an empath, as mentioned in this article by J.R. Thorpe. I am referring mostly to the last 5 paragraphs of the post.

I don’t know if Robin’s singing at the end of Elisa is considered an aria because I don’t know very much about the technical terms used in music. But that word comes to mind. Some of you reading who know much more about music than I do may know the correct term.

There are many other songs where Robin’s soul beauty and pure essence shines through. To me, the energies feel like they come from a higher plane. Here are four more:

1. For Whom the Bell Tolls 
2. Heart Like Mine
3. And the Sun Will Shine
4. Don’t Cry Alone 

Since meeting Robin spiritually in 2012, one of the qualities that moves me the most about him is his spiritual beauty expressed through his music, his literal soul-song. That is a part of him that remains. It is an important aspect of him that I have been connecting with as I listen to his music.

He has shown amazing capability to create beauty as a spirit person as well which I have captured in photographs and shared with you here.

As a result of these feelings, and inspiration from Paramahansa Yogananda, I thought about offering him his own Sanskrit “title” or nickname from my heart to his. Even though it’s a nickname, I’m serious about this description of him and truly feel this applies to him.

This is the spiritual love that twin souls and soul family members have for each other.

I wanted to call him a “beauty avatar,” but I did not know any Sanskrit words for beauty. So, I had to do my research. I discovered that there are 97 Sanskrit words for beauty!

After looking at different options, I chose the word, Sundara, which means “beautiful.”

I wrote a note to Robin in my journal on Saturday, May 25^th, offering him these words:

May 25, 2019 Saturday

Dear Beloved Robin,

If Paramahansa Yogananda is an Incarnation of Divine Love, then, to me, you are an Incarnation of Divine Beauty.

P.Y. is a Premavatar.

I call you Robin,

Sundara-Avatar because “Sundara” in Sanskrit means “beautiful-lovely” in terms of a person.

Sundara-Avatar: an incarnation of Divine Beauty.

All my love,

Christina

This blog is not just about how Robin communicates with me. It’s also about how I communicate with him. You can write notes and letters to your loved ones in spirit. They can read it somehow and know the feelings in your heart. It’s a nice way to continue bonding with loved ones after they cross over. I love writing letters to Robin on a regular basis. It’s a great way to set the stage for synchronicity or make a request for a sign.

Robin was an embodiment of divine beauty, which he expressed through his artistry, writing, singing, and other philanthropic activities. His music expressed spiritual beauty that continues to be emotionally-cleansing, inspiring and healing. It touches a place deep in my soul and the souls of millions of others.

It is through these words that I wish to honor him at the time of his seven year anniversary in spirit.

We can do this type of thing for any person in spirit that we love and care for. Nobody can stop you if you wish to express yourself in this way to a deceased loved one. Offering a special “title” or nickname to someone we love in spirit may be something they really enjoy. It could strengthen your bond. It does not define them in anyway because really, they are beyond any title or pet nickname. But it’s a nice gift to give someone and it’s cute and fun. If it’s meant as a loving gift, and term of endearment, I think the person in spirit may truly appreciate it. Basically, by doing this, you are sending love, which is always welcome.

You can do this with your living loved ones too. What divine qualities do you see in them? Now is the time to tell them. This ‘seeing the divine in others’ is contagious. Since my husband Julian is so compassionate with children and animals, especially injured ones, I gave him the “title” and nickname, Karuna-Avatar, an Incarnation of Divine Compassion. He also embodied this quality prominently when he drove me to radiation therapy, 5 days a week for 4 weeks in a row.

So, he deserves the “title.” It’s fun to do this and it works wonders for your relationships when it’s done with sincerity!

Divine Beauty: John O’ Donohue, Ph.D.

During my research on Sanskrit words for divine beauty, I came across a tremendous surprise and gift. I discovered that the author of one of my favorite books, Anam Cara, also wrote a book on divine beauty that I did not know about. The book is now called Beauty: The Invisible Embrace, (March 1, 2005) by John O’ Donohue.

John O’ Donohue is an author I discovered after Robin’s passing and is one of the greatest teachers on soul relationships.  I am deeply touched by his writings as are millions of others.

If you click here, you can read a sample of his beautiful, poetic writing.

On May 26^th, I read about him on Wikipedia and discovered he passed away unexpectedly in his sleep in 2008 at the age of 52.

I reflected on how that is the age I am right now. It was another lesson on how precious and transitory life is. I am reminded that all I have is now and that I don’t have time to waste. This is why I am writing from my heart and the deepest places within me to share my messages and hopefully touch the hearts of others the way other writers have touched mine.

One thing I have learned on this journey with Robin is that if I want to be an inspiration to others and leave something worthwhile behind in this world, I can’t keep everything locked up inside. Some of the most important things I have to offer and say are connected to my relationship with Robin in spirit. I finally found the courage to share some of these experiences beginning in 2018.

The most inspirational and wisdom-filled people are the ones who share authentically and deeply from their hearts and souls, their insights, discoveries and experiences. They also share their creative gifts, as Robin did, for the betterment of humanity.

During my research, I found this podcast of John O’ Donohue on this website called https://onbeing.org/.

He was being interviewed by Krista Tippett.

I cannot express enough how incredible it is and I highly encourage you to listen to it and/or read the transcript.

I was at Robin’s altar when I listened to it. Afterwards I said to him, “He is an Incarnation of Divine Beauty too.”

I am surrounded by incarnations of beauty, love, compassion, and wisdom. By reading this, I hope you are surrounded by these energies as well. We need this to counterbalance the harsher energies that we inevitably encounter in daily life. All we have to do is watch five minutes of the news and this point will quickly be brought home.

If you visit https://www.johnodonohue.com/, you can view a lovely and inspirational video with excellent spiritual teachings and hear Dr. O’ Donohue speaking in his beautiful Irish brogue.

Cormael

I would like to take a moment to share something else with you. I have written about a twin soul couple named Cormael in one of my posts.

The couple consists of a woman named Cornelia Kluijtmans and her twin soul Michael Hutchence of INXS.

Sadly, I found out that she passed away last year. It came as quite a shock to me. I had finally written to her in December, 2018 after I had recovered a bit. I wanted to let her know about this website.

She didn’t write me back, so I was disappointed at the time. I did notice that she didn’t have any new recent posts at the time and I missed them.

During this time, I was guided to read this twin flame website and this is where and how I found out she had passed away.

Cornelia was born in 1966 as you can see here. This is the same year I was born, so I always felt a kindred connection with her, even though I never met or connected with her.

I found out here that she passed away in October, 2018.

I realized that she was 52 years old when she passed away because her birth date is February 1, 1966. The Cormael website is no longer active, but I had information in my notes to corroborate her birth month.

The twin flame website I linked to above said she passed away in her sleep unexpectedly.

So, now I’m sure you can see why I’m mentioning this. When I found out that John O’ Donohue passed away in his sleep unexpectedly at the age of 52, I thought immediately about Cornelia. It was so synchronistic that 2 authors I adore and feel close to spiritually both died at the age of 52 in their sleep. When I found out about how her death matched Dr. O’ Donohue’s, it was very striking for me.

It may seem strange since I never met her, but I have been grieving Cornelia’s death because her scholarly writings meant so much to me. I truly miss them and they were a great inspiration to me. I’m glad her YouTube videos are still available, at least for now.

Cormael was one of my strongest inspirations to create this website for Robin.

I pray that Cornelia is experiencing the most beautiful afterlife imaginable with God, Michael, and the rest of her soul family. I will always be grateful for you. Thank you for your contributions.

It is important to me that I share this piece about Cormael with you.

I have learned so much and been so blessed as a result of writing this post. Thank you to God, Robin, P. Yogananda, and Dr. O’ Donohue for these blessings.

I hope you received great benefit from what I wrote about. I send you kindness.

References

1. Yogananda, Paramahansa (1946) Autobiography of a Yogi, Authorized by the International Publications Council of Self-Realization Fellowship, pg. 385.
2. O’ Donohue, John (2005). Beauty-The Invisible Embrace: Rediscovering the True Sources of Compassion, Serenity and Hope, New York: HarperCollins Publishers, Inc.

Love,

Christina