Recovery II

Recovery II

by | Aug 16, 2019 | Breast Cancer, Twin Souls

I would like to start by thanking all readers and new subscribers for visiting me here!

For this post, I would like to update you on my progress with breast cancer recovery and how writing plays a role. I am also going to share how afterlife communication with Robin helps me cope and how it brings a strong ray of light into my life to help see me through. For any of you that are my sisters in breast cancer survivorship and recovery, I’m sure you will be able to relate.

Benefits of Writing

It is very therapeutic for cancer survivors to write about our experiences. I also like to share the educational information I have learned and hope it is helpful to someone who may need it.

If you wonder why I write so much, this very good article by Amber Bauer explains why. Here is a brief excerpt:

Early research into the benefits of expressive writing for people with cancer found that women with breast cancer who wrote about their deepest thoughts and feelings reported the fewest symptoms and had the fewest unscheduled visits to their doctors.

Writing is great medicine. It doesn’t only have to be writing about cancer-related issues though. I have found writing here on this website to be extremely therapeutic because I have a platform to write about the things I’m most passionate about.

Writing is good for my life force energy because it is creative, helps me release thoughts and feelings that I have bottled up and also gives me the opportunity to benefit others. I love making my contribution to the literature on afterlife communication and twin souls and I love sharing how amazing Robin is as a Spirit. It brings me great joy and joy is vitally important in recovery.

Most Recent Mammogram

On August 7, 2019, I had my second post-surgery diagnostic mammogram. My first one was in February which I wrote about here.

The mammogram showed that I’m still in very good shape. There is no evidence of malignancy. I have some benign calcifications, but my surgeon is not worried about them because she said they are likely due to my radiation treatment.

She reviewed the imaging report with me which showed the calcifications are scattered, not clustered, within my breasts. When calcifications are scattered, that is more indicative of a benign underlying process being the cause of the calcifications. Therefore, a biopsy is not needed.

I have a great surgeon that I love and that is very important when going through recovery. When going through breast cancer recovery, it is very important to have a doctor that will sit down with you and take the time to go over your mammogram results thoroughly, to your satisfaction, without rushing you. I come prepared to my appointments with a list of questions if I have concerns, which I usually do. Most of my concerns at this point are about preventing recurrence.

I am categorized as BIRADS 3 which means I am required to have short-term follow up in 6 months to make sure there are no changes in the breast tissue. BIRADS is the Breast Imaging Reporting and Data System used in the United States to describe mammogram findings.

It is customary for breast cancer survivors to be followed very closely for the first two years after the initial diagnosis. I am recovering from Stage 1A breast cancer; and I’m grateful for the close follow-up. It is anxiety-provoking to get the mammograms, but it’s a necessary part of the recovery journey.

Also, the BIRADS 3 category caused me anxiety at first with the “probably benign” language. But my doctor reassured me that I was given that category primarily because I need short-term follow-up, meaning a mammogram every 6 months for the next upcoming year.

If you have any concerns about your BIRADS category following your mammogram, I would suggest that you talk with your doctor so you are not unnecessarily worried about what it means. They can break it down for you in terms of what it means for you in your individual case.

I am doing everything I can to prevent a recurrence. I am at a healthy weight, I take my hormonal therapy medication, exercise (either walking, biking or yoga), meditate, do guided relaxation exercises and limit my exposure to the news as I find it too traumatic.

Afterlife Communication is Spiritual Support from Beyond

While I have been going through all of these challenges with my recovery, I have been blessed with communications from Robin. I also benefit from reading my journals I’ve kept over the years, documenting my experiences with him. Sometimes, I can’t believe how much time has gone by. When I read my journal entries from 2012 and 2013, I’m always surprised at how close my bond was with Robin in such a short amount of time.

The other night, I read an entry from February 13, 2013. During that time, I was living in Colorado. This was an entry that I had completely forgotten about. I wrote about how on the day before, I saw a license plate that read, “HULLIS,” while we were out driving. As soon as I saw this entry again, all the feelings I had at that moment came back. I was so amazed at the time because “Hullis” is Robin’s first wife’s maiden name.

I remember feeling so shocked that I saw that plate because what are the chances that I would have been in the same place at the same time as this car? Pretty slim, I think. It was an amazing sign that pointed directly to Robin. I have never seen a license plate with this name on it since.

At this time in 2013, I was already beginning to accept that we were twin souls. From this communication I learned that the messages were not always going to be about Robin specifically. Sometimes, the messages I received were about people Robin had been connected to. So, if you are experiencing a twin soul connection, it’s possible that you will receive messages related to something or someone important to them.

It is so wonderful to be able to go back and read my journals where I documented what I experienced with Robin 6 or more years ago. One of the best things you can do for yourself, if you are engaged in afterlife communication, is to keep a journal. You will be so glad you did. I can say for myself that when I go back and read them, I feel an infusion of energy because I am brought back to the moment in time in which a synchronicity or message occurred. It is exciting, it’s healing and it’s life-enhancing.

Past Journal Entries Sync with Current Life Events

A lot of times when I go back and read my journals from 2012, my old writings will sync up with something going on in my life at the current time. For example, a couple of days ago, my husband and I were watching videos on YouTube about Amsterdam in the Netherlands. It’s a place we’ve always wanted to go.

Well, later that same night, I felt guided to read through my journals again because I was looking for an entry on a dreaAfterlife Communicationsm I had about Robin years ago. I could not find the entry for the dream, but I found an entry where I wrote about a woman I met in a workshop who was from Holland! The city of Amsterdam is in the province of North Holland. So that was a nice synchronicity and a nice moment where I felt very connected to Robin.

I did not remember this entry at all because it was so long ago. So, it was such a nice surprise that what I wrote about all those years ago matched what I was doing that very day.

To me, that’s Robin’s way of showing me that he’s with me because in the journals, I am writing to him. It gives me great happiness when I receive synchronicity like this and that’s why I feel the communications with Robin are a ray of light from an Incarnation of Divine Beauty! That is exactly what he is. I think his fans will agree! I need an incarnation of beauty around to keep my spirits up, lol! 🙂

October Life Parallel

Some time ago, I found out that the last day of the Bee Gees’ Spirits Having Flown tour was October 6, 1979. They were awesome during that tour and I love being able to see the videos now. I love the ‘70s!

October 6 is my birthday, so I felt a special connection with Robin around this date. It made me feel close to him and happy to discover this as this was a huge tour for him and his brothers. It’s the little things like this that are really big things that cause twin souls to bond.

So, when I feel I like I need a little boost during my recovery, I go back to this Wikipedia page and reflect on how we both share something important on October 6th. I turned 13 on that day in 1979. Robin was still 29 years old at that time, but would turn 30 on December 22, 1979.

It’s fun going down memory lane.

As much as I’m sure he enjoyed the tour, I later learned from my Bee Gees book that it’s possible Robin may have been glad, in some ways, when the tour ended. I don’t know for sure, but here are some excerpts illuminating this idea:

But Robin pointed out that, “For all intents and purposes, this tour is like being in prison.” The group were whisked into limousines after each concert and deposited 10 yards from their tour plane after each night’s concert. (1)

 

Any thought of leading any sort of a normal life on the road was hastily dismissed as too much trouble. “To go out and buy a shirt would require two hours planning for logistics and security,” Robin claimed. (2)

So, October 6th could have been significant for him because it marked the end of a very successful, but grueling tour. I can see how that could have been difficult for him. It’s important to realize that these tours and concerts that we enjoy so much as fans are really hard work for the artists and their crew. That’s why I feel fame is a double-edged sword. Still, Robin was doing exactly what he was meant to do and was well compensated. The world is better for his music being in it.

Well, that’s it for now. I hope you’re doing well and benefited in some way from my update and stories.

References

  1. Bilyeu, Melinda; Cook, Hector; Môn Hughes, Andrew. (2013) The Ultimate Biography Of The Bee Gees: Tales Of The Brothers Gibb(Kindle Locations 12424-12426). Omnibus Press. Kindle Edition.
  2. Ibid., Kindle Locations 12426-12428.

 

All my best to you with love,

Afterlife Communication: Numbers and Dates

Afterlife Communication: Numbers and Dates

by | Jun 28, 2019 | General Communications, Numbers and Dates

In my connection with Robin, I am always looking for new things to share with him. On June 17, 2019, I wanted to have something beautiful to read to him during our tea time. So, I went online and researched poetry from different cultures.

Poetry from Around the World

I went to Google and researched “beautiful poetry Spain.” I did the same search for France and Italy. I have never done this before, but felt guided in this direction on that night. I’m not familiar with poetry from these countries, so I was hoping for something unique to share with Robin.

I love new and different things when it comes to many areas of life. When it comes to books, I have many that are best friends and I turn to them over and over again. But sometimes, it’s time for something new, so I do my best to keep my life balanced in that way.

I found some good links for French and Italian poetry.

During my Google search for “beautiful poetry Italy,” I noticed a link for Pinterest.

I clicked on the link so I could explore the poems. A few were written by Italian authors, but I also noticed poetry from authors from all around the world. I didn’t sign into my account at this point because I was just browsing.

I saw a poem I liked called “Not” by Erin Hanson. The poem was on this page.

It’s a great poem guiding us to not define ourselves by superficial criteria. Here is a screenshot of the poem and the other writings that were beside it on the exact day I found it on Pinterest:

The Significance of 520

While reading the poem, I noticed the numbers, “520” to the right of it. I was drawn into this because I associate these numbers with Robin’s passing date, May 20th. I wanted to see what the “520, means coffee time” meant. So, I decided to sign into Pinterest at that point. But after I did, I could no longer find the listing. Pinterest varies in what it shows from moment to moment it seems. So, I Googled it. Here is a screenshot:

Doing this helped me find the post again. I clicked on the Google link, signed into Pinterest and got a lot more information. The pin was published on May 20, 2017. Here is the screenshot. I could only see this when I logged in so I’m showing this to you in case you don’t have a Pinterest account:

I learned that “520” means “I love you” in Chinese. Also, May 20th is considered to be Chinese Valentine’s Day.  I had no idea! This was amazing to find out these numbers I associate with Robin have such a touching meaning in this culture. I’m happy that “520” in this case is actually associated with May 20th and not just “520” with no additional meaning.

The pin connects to this post that was published on May 20, 2017. The author associates “520” with relaxing coffee time. There’s nothing wrong with that!

As I scroll to the bottom of the page, I noticed a post about tea. I love this page, including the photography and sentiments expressed.

I thought this was particularly nice because my main point that night was to find something good to read to Robin while I gave him his orange-spice tea offering.

I had no idea that when I followed my guidance to research French and Italian poetry, that it would lead me on this journey. One thing led to another. I love how it was all interconnected.

I guess we’re still not done talking about Robin’s passing date anniversary because it keeps coming up in the most random and unexpected ways! I don’t determine when we’re done talking about May 20th, Spirit is! More specifically, Robin’s spirit 🙂 !

Staying Connected  Across Dimensions

Receiving this message connected to Robin’s passing date felt so wonderful because I had missed him that day. Life in the physical world is busy and distracting as you know, so I cherish the messages I get that connect me back to him.

It felt like he was saying, “Hi, I’m right here.” Since I was engaged in an activity that had to do with him when I saw “520,” and the new information about its meaning in Chinese, I take this as a sign of Robin’s presence with me. It gives me a nice new memory and association with May 20th from now on.

These messages also serve to strengthen and deepen our bond. I feel like he is closely engaged in what I’m doing.  These messages also give me encouragement to continue our relationship across dimensions.

Receiving these messages is very important to me because I’m hearing from Robin through them and it gives me the feeling that he’s still interested in our relationship.

Imagine that you had a friend on earth that you thought you had a great relationship with, only you never hear from them. You write, call, email and/or text them, but you never hear back from them. Well, eventually, you would give up on contacting them because you’re not getting any feedback, reinforcement or sign that this person is interested in having a relationship with you.

Going back to 2012, if I did not get any messages back from Robin, I would have stopped communicating with him because I don’t continue to reach out to people who don’t respond to me whether embodied or disembodied. I don’t want to bother someone or make a nuisance out of myself. I also have to respect myself and the other party and move on if there is not a mutual connection.

In this way, I was letting Robin know that if he wanted to have a relationship with me, he had to give me some kind of indication, message or response so I knew the connection was mutual. He has done far more than I could have ever imagined in that regard.

Since my relationship with Robin includes God, I see this scripture made manifest in my life:

20Now to him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, 21to him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever. Amen.

The only reason I have this blog is because I continue to receive messages from Robin. If he stopped communicating with me, I would no longer have any messages to write about.

So, when I get a communication, dream, telekinesis, or synchronicity that connects back to him, it is both comforting and a relief because it’s like getting a letter or phone call that says he’s still with me.

I expect that the communications will continue because we love each other and because of our twin soul/soul family connection. I am extremely grateful for this. My connection with Robin has made life on Earth so much better for me.

I usually get one “phone call” or synchronicity a day that really stands out to me as something that connects back to Robin. I know his spirit is with me in those moments.

Here is some good additional information about afterlife communication. It shows how deceased loved ones like to use numbers and significant dates, such as passing dates, to communicate.

Thank you for reading and visiting me here today. I deeply appreciate all of my subscribers!

Love,

Christina

Medicinal Message

Medicinal Message

by | Jun 14, 2019 | Breast Cancer, Synchronicity

Now that we are past Robin’s anniversary dates, I thought I would write a post with a lighter topic.

The synchronicity I experience is my lifeline to Robin’s spirit. I am happy to share another occurrence with you which I hope you will enjoy. As you can tell by the pictures, tasty food is involved! If you have time, I hope you will click on the links I provided because they are meant to enhance the post and give much-needed additional information.

Medicinal Soup

On January 29, 2019, I sat by Robin’s altar while having lunch. I shared with him that I wanted to eat soups that are medicinal. This was just a couple of months into my recovery and I wanted to be as healthy as possible. This had not been too long since I wrote about having lunch with Robin in the post, Afterlife Spice.

So, that day, I came up with my own homemade concoction. I was eating black bean soup again, but this time, added additional ingredients that are good for your health and for building up your immune system.These ingredients included fresh raw garlic, Serrano peppers and cinnamon.

 I continued to include turmeric, black pepper, and added carrots, tomatoes, and shitake mushrooms. Parsley and cilantro are also two of my favorite herbs and I like to add them to my soups. Sometimes I will add fresh rosemary, green beans, Portobello mushrooms, leeks, or cauliflower. I mix it up and use different ingredients at different times to keep it interesting.

I generally use low sodium vegetable broth or chicken bone broth. Adding some low-sodium tomato sauce also gives the soup a nice flavor because the low-sodium broth is pretty bland. All of the ingredients I use are organic if possible due to wanting to protect myself from pesticide load and genetically modified foods. This is a good article explaining the ins and outs of organic farming standards and foods.

It’s important to understand what we’re really getting when we go to the grocery store. Just because something is organic does not mean it’s healthy, so you still have to carefully check labels for sodium, sugar and fat content among other things. I am by no means a professional nutritionist, but I read and study as much as I can on my own to make the most informed choices.

Medicinal Echo

I sat in the room where Robin’s altar is kept with the door closed, quietly eating my soup and talking with him about the ingredients. Robin was a macrobiotic vegetarian, so I believe these dietary issues interest him.

He spoke about his diet in this video, beginning around 2:12 into the interview. He made me laugh with this one!

After I was done with lunch, Julian greeted me with a surprising comment. He was sitting at his desk and had been reading something online. He said he was reading about Parmigiano-Reggiano cheese and how it’s medicinal!

He had been reading this article which you might find interesting if you like this type of cheese. I love it!

The interesting thing is that the word “medicinal” is not mentioned in the article. It does go into quite a bit of nutritional information about Parmigiano-Reggiano.

I said to him that it was really weird because I had just used the exact word, “medicinal” when talking with Robin at lunch about my soup approximately a ½ hour earlier. I asked Julian if he had heard what I was saying to Robin and he said “no,” he hadn’t. I often ask my husband these sorts of questions because I want to make sure it’s a true synchronicity.

I talk pretty softly when I’m with Robin. Even if he did hear me talking, I believe him that he didn’t hear my exact words because of the acoustics of our home. So, it was an amazing synchronicity and “medicinal message” back.

I’m fascinated that I had just finished talking about my medicinal soup with Robin and then as soon as I finish, Julian started talking with me about this cheese, calling it medicinal. It’s the fun, surprising and shocking way in which we are connected. Sometimes, all it takes is one word to let you know your loved one in spirit is communicating with you. I feel like I’m given a nice blessing back for choosing to spend time with Robin, which is invaluable.

Spouse-Twin Connection

This section is a short follow-up to what I wrote in this post about being married when your twin soul arrives.

Julian has been mirroring back to me what I say to, write or read about Robin since the summer of 2012. This was before I knew anything about twin souls. My research on afterlife communication began seriously in June, 2012 once I started noticing how my husband was often saying or doing things that matched with something to do with Robin. It is really incredible to witness, just like with the post I wrote on the Dr. King Synchronicity.

Sometimes it feels like Robin is visiting me through my husband. There is some basis for what I’m saying in the literature on twin souls. In this fascinating post, Omraam Mikhaël Aïvanhov wrote about how our twin from the spirit world can visit us by using another person as a vehicle.

A twin from spirit can take up temporary residence in a spouse on earth for example, without the spouse being the least bit aware of it. Master Aïvanhov is 100% correct. I have seen this with my own eyes and I can sense Robin’s presence in Julian very strongly at times.

Whoever has ears to hear, let them hear!

If you are interested in more information about what Master Aïvanhov has to say about love, sexuality and twin souls, please check out his book which you can find here. Chapter 19 is about twin souls.

My twin soul connection with Robin has included my husband from the very beginning, before I knew what was going on. From my point of view, this is how I want it to be. It’s important for people to know that twin soul connections are meant to be spiritual connections and can include your current partner when your twin is in spirit. Your partner and twin can blend together in a way that is impossible not to notice. It’s something amazing that I have learned after Robin’s passing.  I had no knowledge of this type of phenomena before Robin entered the spirit world.

afterlife communicationsThe arrival of a twin soul from spirit does not have to cause any separation in an already established marriage. I suppose it could if marriage partners are having pre-existing problems. Spirits, especially twin soul spirits, are very powerful in making their presence known, as Robin has done. But if your marriage is strong and stable enough, it is possible for this type of spouse-twin integration to occur. The integration shows up in particular synchronistic moments.

The synchronicity that occurs through Julian on such a regular basis is Robin’s way of letting me know he’s here and visiting for a few moments.

Chef Massimo Bottura

A year or so ago, I first watched an episode of a show on Netflix called Chef’s Table. I watched it again on June 9th to refresh my memory.

The episode I watched was of Italian Chef Massimo Bottura on Season (or Volume) 1, Episode 1. I share this with you here because it was a beautiful show explaining some of the history of Modena, Italy as it relates to Parmigiano Reggiano.

There was an earthquake that did a lot of damage to Modena and put the Parmigiano Reggiano industry at risk for bankruptcy because 360,000 wheels of Parmigiano were damaged.

The episode of the show opened with the date of the earthquake: May 20, 2012.

As you can imagine, I got the chills when I saw that date, which is Robin’s passing date.

To help save the Parmigiano industry of Modena, Chef Bottura created a risotto recipe where the cheese was a main ingredient. Word got out around the world about his recipe and people starting making it. All the damaged wheels of Parmigiano were sold and people were able to keep their jobs. It’s a beautiful humanitarian story which shows the kind inner spirit of this chef. He seems to have a very good heart as a food philanthropist. You can read about his work preventing food waste and hunger here.

Sometimes I think that I received the synchronicity about this medicinal Parmigiano through Julian because Robin knows about this show I watched, the date of the earthquake and how it coincided with his passing date. I think the synchronicity was meant to bring me back to this show and this date because honestly, I had forgotten about how May 20, 2012 was displayed on the screen right at the beginning of this show. I was reminded of that again when I watched it on June 9th, as I mentioned. It was there smack bang in my face again, to borrow Robin’s words!

It’s funny how I opened this post with saying we are past his anniversary dates, but I guess we’re really not, lol!

So, sometimes, loved ones in spirit might want to revisit a topic that you have already shared before. With so much going on with my health, I had forgotten about the May 20th earthquake date. I’m sure Robin knows and understands that. So, he gave me a reminder and brought me back to a show that gave me a lot of joy. I also like to write about really good people on this website and Chef Bottura appears to be just that.

Immune System Booster Salad

One final thing I would like to add to this lunch is a salad I like. I did research on what some of the most nutritional greens and veggies are. Here’s what I came up with. Cancer survivor or not, this type of food is good for our bodies.

Use the following in the amounts you want and organic if you can find/afford it:

  • Organic Girl greens: 50/50, Super Greens or any kind of spring mix you like.
  • Dandelion greens: I admit they are bitter and take some getting used to, but are very good for you. I started including them in my diet when I first found out I had breast cancer. Lady Moon Farms has a nice brand of dandelion greens that you can find at Whole Foods. Many other earthy-crunchy health food stores carry them as well depending on where you live, such as Earth Origins.
  • Watercress (peppery)
  • Broccoli
  • Cherry tomatoes and carrots
  • Extra-virgin olive oil and balsamic vinegar
  • Parmigiano-Reggiano: Whole Foods sells a beautiful Parmigiano-Reggiano, but it’s so darn expensive, I buy it only if it’s on sale. I hope there are other good options in your area for buying high-quality cheese. By the way, the soup I made and cheese are delicious together!
  • Whatever else you want: I often add natural, unsalted almonds or walnuts. Good substitutions for any of the above ingredients are kale, beet greens, or arugula. I eat whatever greens I can get my hands on! 🙂

I hope you enjoyed this tasty afterlife communication with Robin, my husband and me. This was fun!

All my best to you with love,

Christina

P.S.:  I wrote a rough draft for this post on Saturday, June 9th. After I saved the document for the day, I went to talk to my husband about what he was doing. He was carefully researching dental plans for us, noting how many scams there are. As far as some of the plans he said, “There may be some ins and outs to it.”

I smiled because I had just finished writing about the “ins and outs” of organic food. There is definitely a beautiful spirit around and working through my husband! This matching and mirroring really stands out to me. I honor it, acknowledge it and give thanks to God, Robin and my Guardians for it.

Namaste!

Incarnation of Beauty

Incarnation of Beauty

by | May 31, 2019 | General Communications, Synchronicity

Since I wrote my last post, I needed to go through a period of germination before I was ready to put words to print once again.

This period of time between Robin’s passing date anniversary (May 20) and his funeral date anniversary (June 8) has been a very intense time for me of reflection, quietness, solitude and tuning into him.

I wonder what his soul experienced between these dates in 2012 and whether he was closely watching what transpired in his honor. I suspect that he was.

It really matters when a person leaves the earth plane. People are leaving the physical plane of the earth every minute. We don’t know the vast majority of them, who exit their bodies under the most gentle or horrendous of circumstances. But they still matter.

I did not want to rush and write anything here until I was truly ready. Now, my ideas have formed sufficiently enough in my soul to share them with you.

This post is inspired and influenced by the energies I am experiencing concerning Robin during this introspective time between his passing date anniversary and funeral anniversary. It is about spiritual beauty and in remembrance of beautiful souls that I adore.

Avatars of Love, Beauty, and Compassion

When most people think of an avatar, they think of the movie or a graphic representation of a person seen on the internet.

That is all true and fine, and I liked the movie. But the word “avatar” has much greater and deeper meanings.

An avatar is an incarnation of the divine in human form. It is also an incarnation or the embodiment of particular human qualities.

According to https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/avatar, an avatar is the embodiment of a Hindu deity, for example. The other definition, which is the one I am relating to in this post, is “an embodiment (as of a concept or philosophy) often in a person.”

On May 22nd, I felt guided to read Autobiography of a Yogi by Paramahansa Yogananda again.

I sought his guidance about some things going on in my life. As I spent time thinking of him, I remembered that he was called a Premavatar, an incarnation of divine love. His guru Sri Yukteswar referred to him as this. (1) The title Premavatar was officially given to him by his chief disciple, Rajarsi Janakananda after his passing.

This is so beautiful to me and it caused me to reflect on Robin. I thought about his beauty that flowed through his 4th and 5th chakras, the heart and the throat respectively, as music. Here, I am not talking about physical beauty or glamour, although he had that.

I am speaking of spiritual beauty, a beauty beyond words, that I hear coming from his soul, a higher place, through the vehicle of his songs.

For me, one of the songs that display this spiritual beauty quite strongly is Elisa, particularly the end of the song.

The combination of Robin’s voice and the musical composition in this song recently brought me to tears due to the beauty of it. He found a way to make the sadness of saying goodbye sound exquisitely beautiful. I have a great appreciation for this type of beauty.

At the end of the song Elisa, Robin was able to consolidate and transform the emotions of loss and longing into gorgeous notes of music. It is an incredible piece. Robin was only 23 years old when this song was released.

I was using my third ear while listening to this song, meaning, I was listening deeply for the emotional messages he was uncovering. Perhaps you use your third ear too, when listening to Robin sing.

Some of my reactions to Robin’s music may tie into my being an empath, as mentioned in this article by J.R. Thorpe. I am referring mostly to the last 5 paragraphs of the post.

I don’t know if Robin’s singing at the end of Elisa is considered an aria because I don’t know very much about the technical terms used in music. But that word comes to mind. Some of you reading who know much more about music than I do may know the correct term.

There are many other songs where Robin’s soul beauty and pure essence shines through. To me, the energies feel like they come from a higher plane. Here are four more:

  1. For Whom the Bell Tolls 
  2. Heart Like Mine
  3. And the Sun Will Shine
  4. Don’t Cry Alone 

Since meeting Robin spiritually in 2012, one of the qualities that moves me the most about him is his spiritual beauty expressed through his music, his literal soul-song. That is a part of him that remains. It is an important aspect of him that I have been connecting with as I listen to his music.

He has shown amazing capability to create beauty as a spirit person as well which I have captured in photographs and shared with you here.

As a result of these feelings, and inspiration from Paramahansa Yogananda, I thought about offering him his own Sanskrit “title” or nickname from my heart to his. Even though it’s a nickname, I’m serious about this description of him and truly feel this applies to him.

This is the spiritual love that twin souls and soul family members have for each other.

I wanted to call him a “beauty avatar,” but I did not know any Sanskrit words for beauty. So, I had to do my research. I discovered that there are 97 Sanskrit words for beauty!

After looking at different options, I chose the word, Sundara, which means “beautiful.”

I wrote a note to Robin in my journal on Saturday, May 25th, offering him these words:

May 25, 2019 Saturday

Dear Beloved Robin,

If Paramahansa Yogananda is an Incarnation of Divine Love, then, to me, you are an Incarnation of Divine Beauty.

P.Y. is a Premavatar.

I call you Robin,

Sundara-Avatar because “Sundara” in Sanskrit means “beautiful-lovely” in terms of a person.

Sundara-Avatar: an incarnation of Divine Beauty.

All my love,

Christina

This blog is not just about how Robin communicates with me. It’s also about how I communicate with him. You can write notes and letters to your loved ones in spirit. They can read it somehow and know the feelings in your heart. It’s a nice way to continue bonding with loved ones after they cross over. I love writing letters to Robin on a regular basis. It’s a great way to set the stage for synchronicity or make a request for a sign.

Robin was an embodiment of divine beauty, which he expressed through his artistry, writing, singing, and other philanthropic activities. His music expressed spiritual beauty that continues to be emotionally-cleansing, inspiring and healing. It touches a place deep in my soul and the souls of millions of others.

It is through these words that I wish to honor him at the time of his seven year anniversary in spirit.

We can do this type of thing for any person in spirit that we love and care for. Nobody can stop you if you wish to express yourself in this way to a deceased loved one. Offering a special “title” or nickname to someone we love in spirit may be something they really enjoy. It could strengthen your bond. It does not define them in anyway because really, they are beyond any title or pet nickname. But it’s a nice gift to give someone and it’s cute and fun. If it’s meant as a loving gift, and term of endearment, I think the person in spirit may truly appreciate it. Basically, by doing this, you are sending love, which is always welcome.

You can do this with your living loved ones too. What divine qualities do you see in them? Now is the time to tell them. This ‘seeing the divine in others’ is contagious. Since my husband Julian is so compassionate with children and animals, especially injured ones, I gave him the “title” and nickname, Karuna-Avatar, an Incarnation of Divine Compassion. He also embodied this quality prominently when he drove me to radiation therapy, 5 days a week for 4 weeks in a row.

So, he deserves the “title.” It’s fun to do this and it works wonders for your relationships when it’s done with sincerity!

Divine Beauty: John O’ Donohue, Ph.D.

During my research on Sanskrit words for divine beauty, I came across a tremendous surprise and gift. I discovered that the author of one of my favorite books, Anam Cara, also wrote a book on divine beauty that I did not know about. The book is now called Beauty: The Invisible Embrace, (March 1, 2005) by John O’ Donohue.

John O’ Donohue is an author I discovered after Robin’s passing and is one of the greatest teachers on soul relationships.  I am deeply touched by his writings as are millions of others.

If you click here, you can read a sample of his beautiful, poetic writing.

On May 26th, I read about him on Wikipedia and discovered he passed away unexpectedly in his sleep in 2008 at the age of 52.

I reflected on how that is the age I am right now. It was another lesson on how precious and transitory life is. I am reminded that all I have is now and that I don’t have time to waste. This is why I am writing from my heart and the deepest places within me to share my messages and hopefully touch the hearts of others the way other writers have touched mine.

This is a picture of the Burren region of W. Ireland where John O’ Donohue was from.

This is a picture of the Burren region of W. Ireland where John O’ Donohue was from.

One thing I have learned on this journey with Robin is that if I want to be an inspiration to others and leave something worthwhile behind in this world, I can’t keep everything locked up inside. Some of the most important things I have to offer and say are connected to my relationship with Robin in spirit. I finally found the courage to share some of these experiences beginning in 2018.

The most inspirational and wisdom-filled people are the ones who share authentically and deeply from their hearts and souls, their insights, discoveries and experiences. They also share their creative gifts, as Robin did, for the betterment of humanity.

During my research, I found this podcast of John O’ Donohue on this website called https://onbeing.org/.

He was being interviewed by Krista Tippett.

I cannot express enough how incredible it is and I highly encourage you to listen to it and/or read the transcript.

I was at Robin’s altar when I listened to it. Afterwards I said to him, “He is an Incarnation of Divine Beauty too.”

I am surrounded by incarnations of beauty, love, compassion, and wisdom. By reading this, I hope you are surrounded by these energies as well. We need this to counterbalance the harsher energies that we inevitably encounter in daily life. All we have to do is watch five minutes of the news and this point will quickly be brought home.

If you visit https://www.johnodonohue.com/, you can view a lovely and inspirational video with excellent spiritual teachings and hear Dr. O’ Donohue speaking in his beautiful Irish brogue.

Cormael

I would like to take a moment to share something else with you. I have written about a twin soul couple named Cormael in one of my posts.

The couple consists of a woman named Cornelia Kluijtmans and her twin soul Michael Hutchence of INXS.

Sadly, I found out that she passed away last year. It came as quite a shock to me. I had finally written to her in December, 2018 after I had recovered a bit. I wanted to let her know about this website.

She didn’t write me back, so I was disappointed at the time. I did notice that she didn’t have any new recent posts at the time and I missed them.

During this time, I was guided to read this twin flame website and this is where and how I found out she had passed away.

Cornelia was born in 1966 as you can see here. This is the same year I was born, so I always felt a kindred connection with her, even though I never met or connected with her.

I found out here that she passed away in October, 2018.

I realized that she was 52 years old when she passed away because her birth date is February 1, 1966. The Cormael website is no longer active, but I had information in my notes to corroborate her birth month.

The twin flame website I linked to above said she passed away in her sleep unexpectedly.

So, now I’m sure you can see why I’m mentioning this. When I found out that John O’ Donohue passed away in his sleep unexpectedly at the age of 52, I thought immediately about Cornelia. It was so synchronistic that 2 authors I adore and feel close to spiritually both died at the age of 52 in their sleep. When I found out about how her death matched Dr. O’ Donohue’s, it was very striking for me.

It may seem strange since I never met her, but I have been grieving Cornelia’s death because her scholarly writings meant so much to me. I truly miss them and they were a great inspiration to me. I’m glad her YouTube videos are still available, at least for now.

Cormael was one of my strongest inspirations to create this website for Robin.

I pray that Cornelia is experiencing the most beautiful afterlife imaginable with God, Michael, and the rest of her soul family. I will always be grateful for you. Thank you for your contributions.

It is important to me that I share this piece about Cormael with you.

I have learned so much and been so blessed as a result of writing this post. Thank you to God, Robin, P. Yogananda, and Dr. O’ Donohue for these blessings.

I hope you received great benefit from what I wrote about. I send you kindness.

References

  1. Yogananda, Paramahansa (1946) Autobiography of a Yogi, Authorized by the International Publications Council of Self-Realization Fellowship, pg. 385.
  2. O’ Donohue, John (2005). Beauty-The Invisible Embrace: Rediscovering the True Sources of Compassion, Serenity and Hope, New York: HarperCollins Publishers, Inc.

Love,

Christina

Robin’s altar late spring May 28, 2019

Robin’s altar late spring May 28, 2019

 

Seven Years in Spirit

Seven Years in Spirit

by | May 20, 2019 | Bee Gees Songs and Books, General Communications

In honor of Robin’s seven year anniversary of being in spirit, I wrote a guided meditation. It’s my way of showing I love and care about him on this day. It’s something I thought he would like and hopefully, you will like it too.

If you are interested in other ways to acknowledge the death anniversary of a loved one, you may enjoy this article.

I reflected on the beautiful, spiritual songs the Bee Gees created for their Still Waters CD.

Their CD title reminded me of Psalm 23, verses 1-3. The bold is mine for emphasis:

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.

He makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside the still waters.

He restores my soul; He leads me in the paths of righteousness For His name’s sake. (1)

For me, these are some of the most peaceful, healing words in print. It is comforting to know that the spirit of God and Love lead and guide us. I often turn to the green of nature to heal my heart and soul. I love turning to still waters for spiritual restoration.

So, the Bee Gees’ CD and Psalm 23:2 is the inspiration for this meditation. I dedicate it to Robin to bless his spirit on this important day of his soul’s evolution.

Still Waters Meditation by Christina Samuels

I would like to take you on a gentle journey of healing and love.

Feel free to pause when you see ellipses (…).

Find a quiet place where you can be with yourself. Sit in a cozy, comfortable chair where you can just sink in and relax while you read this. Or, you can lie down wherever is best for you.

Begin to slow down now by turning your attention to your breath. Inhale slowly through your nose and exhale quietly through your mouth…Take a few slow, long, soft breaths to center yourself in the present moment…allow everything else to stop so you can breathe and focus…close your eyes for a few moments to do this…

Continue to allow your mind and thoughts to quiet down…quiet your mind…inhale gently through your nose…exhale slowly through your mouth…letting your emotions come to a place of peacefulness…letting everything slow down into serenity…as you inhale, your belly slowly expands…as you exhale, it sinks down in repose…

It’s time for your body to gradually release its tensions…as you breath slowly and calmly, your forehead and eyes relax…your lips, jaw and entire face relaxes…relaxation now flows down into your neck, shoulders, arms and hands…as you breath slowly, your chest and abdomen soften and relax…relaxation continues to flow into your hips… legs… knees… ankles…feet…and toes…feeling calm, serene and relaxed all through your body…and deep into your soul…inner quiet and peace fill your entire being…resting in stillness.

Now, in your mind’s eye, envision a quiet, still pond…you have come here for solitude, peace and healing which the pond freely offers you…the water is calm, clear and bluish-green… There are beautiful trees nearby providing you with shade and coolness…healthy and vibrant willow, maple and oak trees…the temperature is perfect…a soft breeze caresses your face…you look up into the cloudless, blue sky and feel so serene…the sun is shining, warming your face and body…

There is soft, tall green grass all around the pond that bring a feeling of gentleness…you notice how lush and green everything is…the freshness and newness of nature…the healing energy is powerful here…you are absorbing this powerful, but peaceful healing energy…breathing it in to every cell in your body…

Now that you have become acquainted with the pond’s surroundings, you are drawn into its’ stillness…you want to get a little closer…you see a path in front of you that will take you to the pond’s edge…slowly walking down this path now…getting closer to the pond and the quietness it offers…

You see colorful wildflowers off to the side of the path…buttercups…daisies…and violets…you take a moment to touch the soft velvety petals of the flowers…you also see some fragrant wild lavender in bloom… pretty, purple blossoms…soft green leaves…you bend down to touch the leaves…rubbing them gently between your fingers…releasing the fragrance and essential oils…breathing the softness of the green, the beauty of the fragrance into your heart center…filling your heart with softness, gentleness, and good feelings…

The sweet birdsongs of robins, sparrows and finches keep you company…you are surrounded by beauty, peace and unconditional love…

You have now reached the edge of the pond…it is very appealing to your senses…and you take a moment to stand here… you feel deep tranquility…breathing slowly and deeply…inner peace fills you…you are being led beside the still, quiet waters…

You notice now that the path meanders around, following the edge of the pond…you feel guided to begin walking again…a slow, quiet stroll…the only movement you notice are cattails swaying slightly in the summer breeze… you enjoy the interplay of sunlight sparkling on the water…out of the corner of your eye, you see beautiful blue iris flowers…everything about this places makes you want to stay…your body is relaxed and your mind is peaceful…you are enfolded in a nurturing, loving spiritual presence…

You’ve walked a little way now…and you are approaching a bench just off to your right…it is placed just perfectly under a large shade tree…it is one of your favorite trees…you decide to sit down on this bench and take a rest now…

You look at the bench and notice how beautiful and artistic it is…it is made of wood with the most gorgeous mother-of-pearl inlay…it shimmers in blue, pink and purple hues…there is a floral and leaf pattern embedded all throughout the bench…this feels like a very special place, one that was created just for you beside the still waters…

Here, you can restore your soul…meditate on the still waters of the pond…rest your mind…let it soothe your emotions…continuing to breathe slowly and easily…rest your eyes…birds continuing to sing their melodic song for you…the scent of wildflowers wafting by…ease and peace in your soul…

The bench is comfortable…and you take the time to reflect on your relaxing experience at the pond today…you feel more balanced and centered…your heart is filled with the peace that passes all human understanding…

You have allowed the essence of nature, the quiet, still waters, to be a soothing, healing balm for your inner spirit…the water, birds, flowers, trees and sunlight all intermingling together to care for you…they are always here for you if you open your heart to receive healing…In this sanctuary, you are loved and accepted just as you are…

Take a few more moments just for yourself in quietness and stillness…

Your still waters journey has come to an end for now. Take a moment to slowly move your legs, feet and toes, your arms and fingers…gently stretching your arms overhead… If it feels good to you, you can give yourself a gentle hug, while inhaling slowly, exhaling completely…. Allow your eyes to open when you are ready…hold in your being the peace you have acquired on your journey…

© 2019 by Christina Samuels. If you like this meditation and want to share it, please feel free to do so. If you do, please credit me as the author and provide a link back to this page at Paisley & Poppies. Thank you!

References

  1. Jakes, T.D. (January 15, 1999) Holy Bible, Woman Thou Art Loosed! Edition, Paperback, (page 582).

Thank you, Robin, for an amazing seven years!

Love,

Christina

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